牵牛花开的日子

This show makes me cry so much.   And I’m so tired from all the crying now. Craving for Mac seaweed shaker fries and grilled chicken teppanyaki burger now. Uh. (^(00)^) Nearly tempted into ordering Mcdelivery for dinner.

超级超级的女孩

[Chinese Version]

@ 0.36 不’喂’不’喂’他不’喂’你 ?

And oh please, their smiles can 迷死人! HAHAHA! But I still prefer Korean version ♥!

My stomach is giving me problems again :/ Argh. Have to reach school @ 8am tomorrow instead. Feel like oh my. Wonder if I could wake up on time.

I have to admit that…

I hate feeling weak. I hate feeling useless. I hate feeling worthless. I hate feeling disappointed. I hate feeling my worst. I hate feeling nothing’s right. I hate feeling lazy. I hate being non motivational. I hate being this way.

I don’t like wasting my day, just like that.

@ S.A.M

Headed down to the Singapore Art Museum after school for our art review assignment. Managed to find one painting which I’m interested in. For the very first time, I learnt history through painting. I was ‘ooooh’-ing and ‘ahhhhh’-ing while contemplating the meanings behind each painting or art work. Pretty impressed though I’m not an arty guru. But what got me really interested were the ceramics. I really miss those times in primary.

“I’m so amazed by this seriously“

“beautiful “

“$1.90 for such a large cup with generous amount of pearls! @ SMU“

WHEE, great day yo!

Joy of receiving.

“Daisy – innocence, purity and cheerfulness “

Mom brought home a stalk of daisy for me today! Just enough to put a smile on my face The joy of receiving – is simply wonderful. But while we enjoy receiving from others, let’s not forget about those who always give.

We’ve got to learn how to give and receive equally, cause I realized that’s how relationships work. Any one would get tired of giving some day, though the joy of giving is as wonderful. Cause we are humans, not saints.

So I really thank every one of you in my life who has given me something – time, effort, care, love, joy, laughters, memories… everything everything. Every one.

And heh, it’s beside me now, beside my laptop, while I was working on my CS research. (L)! Side-tracked a little, browsed through my semester 2.1 folder and chanced upon to read about my business idea proposal which I’ve written for my BOE. I almost totally forget about it.

“FloralTale Café is a flower themed café where people could come to relax and unwind after a day of stress. Being in Nature is the simplest way to relieve stress and research shows that flowers have strong positive effects on our emotion well being. The presence of flowers does help people feel less depressed, have less worry and anxiety. My idea is thus to circulate the beauty and benefits of flowers to my consumers.”

Ahhh, how I wish.

1 more month; my favorite festive and then coming 2010. Year after year, life’s full of unexpected happenings and changes. And it’s why I love – life.

Anyway, it’s super windy today. Ideal for kite flying. And yes, I saw many kites flying in the skies today. Lovely. I want to fly kite fly kite fly kite~! Yes empty talk only. I’m going to smack myself if this continues.

“mom’s gonna smack me if she knows I post this online. “

GOODNIGHT PEOPLE!

A sweet dream or beautiful nightmare?

“Love this shot “

I’m officially sick, and missed my first trading @ 1st Avenue yesterday.   Good thing was, I had the whole day to myself though. Feeling terrible but I’m glad I had some me-time for self thoughts. I appreciated that. Love sitting by my window side, and watched the rain. And think.

There are so many ‘whys’ in my head. But I realized there is no answer to everything in this world. This world contradicts me too much, that sometimes, I wonder if I’m born weird. Hah. I know I can’t change how this world works, neither could I change how humans behave. I’m not that noble anyway. But I hope, I could still hold on to what I’ve been believing, in things which others might not have. I need the balance, between me and reality.

Shouldn’t have complicated thoughts so much, really.

Self-checked. ‘Letting go’ isn’t easy; but I managed to. Yes, and I mean the greed in me.

Okay, off for my TV now!!! Till then.

Frosty day.

It was frosty today. The coldest rainy of all days.

It wasn’t a good day for me though. For every bus I tried boarding today, it would always be full when it was my turn. Bad luck or what. I wonder how much time could one spend on waiting for bus in a lifetime? Hm.

Was sleepy during U-Art tutorial and ultimately dozed off on bus while on my way home. Been listless the whole day, oh why. And to you hello amanda, welcome to my blog anyway. HAHA.

Sometimes, I feel so tired and grumpy being myself. But for the very least, I feel that what I’m doing is right and I’m following what I want myself to be. It may be the longer and tougher route to walk, but I know this is what I want.

And all I could say to myself now is: [ 加油。]

Say three!

Great day out with them @ town today! Shopped from places to places and so happy that I’ve got the things I wanted. I loved it when we ran through the rain and got drenched midway, HAHAH!

“Lunch @ Jap Casual Dining, Ion.“

“On the long long escalator… “

“Orchard Central is like a maze to me.“

That’s my day. Sweet dreams everyone! (L)

First time!

I’m getting this *SNAP BUTTON KNIT JACKET online! Thanks to siewsiew’s offer, really! There’s no way I could get something for myself online without a single help. Cause you know, I’m rather a noob at this! Hurhurhur  

So anyway, skipped lecture today. Feeling so not right in the early morning. I think I caught a cold or something? Ahhh, felt good to be at home. But at the same time, I hate feeling lazy, especially when I’m home. :/ Contradicting uh?.

Was doing my U-Art research on visual journaling a while ago, interesting! I really like to keep it real personal to my life and inner thoughts though. That’s one great thing I love about art. But I hate it when we were given themes. Why oh why should we be confined to themes? Argh. But yeah, I’ve already got some idea for a start, but I wonder if I could do a good job out of it. And ah, mask design! I’m so helpless on that. No inspiration at all.

You’ve got it, I made a bad cds choice this time.

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Let’s put a smile…

“…on our faces! “

As usual, I did not complete my CS2 test on time. But whatever, really. I’m too used to being a laggard. Like, I’ve developed a phobia out of this on my own. Who knows. So putting that aside, we had lunch at Mac this afternoon! This girl and I spent a dollar each for this smile! HEHEH. I love smiles! (L)

And let’s not to forget this: Be happy to smile; and not smile to be happy. There’s quite a difference, you get it.

Been rainy for the past few days…and today too! Love weather like this. To make me dream and yearn. To make me feel the cold. To make me feel a little sluggish. To have me people-watched in the rain. Love feeling like this. Something I can’t really describe though.

Sometimes, I feel it’s not easy for people to understand why people like me would love to dream and feel so deeply for things around me. It’s because – this me. (you’re right, jb )

P.S  Craving for tom yam noodle now!

Get away with…

a movie on a Saturday evening was (L) !

Watched Paranormal Activity with jiebing and weijin. Almost fell asleep during the start of the movie. And we kept laughing when it was a horror film? HAHA. Their laughters are contagious really. But anyway, the movie was not impressive enough though. I need more adrenaline rush!

Before that, was at school library with jiebing. And yes right, we had the intention to study for our upcoming CS2 test (I swear!). But my bad really, I started to play with her phone and dang, we ended up not studying at all. No studying mood yet, uh huh. I need a break

“we’ve got bangs!”

“Hello, my name is yap yan yan.”

Been on Facebook since back. I love doing blogthings. Told you, I’m quite a homebody haha. Some things are just true for me, though I’m not sure how do you think it is. But I thought this part is something I totally agree with myself:

“You try to stay away from people and activities that drain you. You prefer to save your energy for those who really matter to you.”

Oh great, I’ve yet started on CS2 test revision. And my never ending to-do list, which I’ve always failed to complete on time. Booohoo. And oh oh, I’ve just missed the jap movie which I’ve been wanting to watch very long time ago: 与狗狗的十个承诺.   Please show again soon!!!

I miss my TV.